For the past few days, I have felt incredibly restless for some reason.
I no longer just want to stay at home and spend countless hours on the internet. There's not much that has been interesting to me on there anyway. I want to get out and explore somewhere, other than my small town. I want to go adventuring and have developed a great wanderlust these past couple of days.
I'm not sure if this is a long lasting thing, or it's just temporary. It's driving me crazy, though. I also don't know if this is related to the impending launch of Guild Wars 2 when I know I will be spending countless hours in front of my screen doing just what I want to do, only in a virtual world.
I'm really not sure where this came from, but I guess I'm just tired of the routine and I want something different. I want some excitement and adventure and I'm just not getting enough of it right now.
I know I'm going on vacation in June, but that's so far away. I'm going to Hawaii, by the way. I've been there once before, but that was when I was a freshman in high school. I remember bits and pieces of it, but not a lot. I expect to have quite a few adventures, but for now, I really need an adventuring fix.
I'm really not sure where this came from, but it came out of nowhere. Maybe it's been building up all this time and I never really noticed. All I know is that this feeling is so overwhelming. I need to go do something about it soon. I think I will start with going for a walk somewhere other than my town.
I do wish I lived somewhere else, somewhere not so secluded. I wish I could take a train somewhere for a day trip. I really wish I lived in another country. Maybe I'll look into a study abroad program. I'd love to go somewhere else for a while. I know my bf wouldn't like it, but this is something I feel I need to do for myself. And if he truly loved me, he'd be supportive and let me do this.
I just need something.
2 comments:
You know, there are a lot of people out there who say, "follow what feels right to you", and I support thinking like that. I've been through rough periods myself, except usually I don't have many people around me to help support me and keep me going. But I'm still around and that's a testament to everything. If you need some time off, take it. For just a day, don't think about what could be. Or even a weekend. I'm going on vacation myself in June as well, my first in many years and during that, I'm putting my life behind me. Do what you need to do. Make something amazing happen. Be yourself. Obviously, don't let it affect the rest of your life as a whole, but if you have the chance, get out and do it.
Yeah. I do have parents that would support me and try their hardest if I wanted to do a study abroad program. I'm just not 100% sure of what I want to do yet. I do know that I need to change something but I might have to wait until I graduate from the college I'm currently going to. I think going on vacation in June will help me a bit since I think part of feeling stuck is never going anywhere other than around CA or around where I live.
Just some things I need to think about.
Thanks for the comment! :)
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